Not happy

How should I get started now?Hmmm...Ok, lets juz say I'm not happy.Watever its I dun quite feel like myself, everyone,things etc all not familiar anymore.Many old issues still get stuck in my mind, which I wanted 2 solve but cant manage.Therefore I still remain in the old shell, juz like a turtle.The person whom I once tot can share my everything,again make me think tat he is not capable of doing so.Too self-centred & engrossed in his own work,tat I dun feel a breathing space or closeness.EVerything is so intense & I dun like this way of doing things.Tat makes me wonder do I nd him or does he nd me anot????

The feeling of being abandoned & lack of concern,time is always the prob.For once I tot time can be prioritize well & everything can be solved but y must I always be the one who initiate?The world is not perfect & I'm not as well.Not fair not fair,I always shouted but who bothers tat much these days.Everyone juz think abt himself/herself,dun assume tat a little time can solved most of the probs arised.$$ is one issue tat cant be dealed wif time.Dun assume tat the longer u worked,u will get more or be recognized.Its totally wrong!!!!!!!!

Sometimes being too nice or kind to others,can be a danger to oneself.Everything comes & u accept it readily,trying yr best 2 complete yr task on time but does it bounced back 2 u, the amt of effort u put into it?No,definately no.As far as I m concerned,I think better 2 keep things 2 myself as ppl dun appreciate if u do things 4 them willingly.Will they c the hard work u put in,definately no?Does they thanked u 4 the special thing u did 4 them?No again.Come to think abt tat,I may as well treat myself better than to others.So fed up!!!!!!