Really torturing me

2day is my last nite, talking abt last nite I had a bad bad experience in doing this transplant case. Upon coming 2 work, I already knew tat there is going 2 be this case going on, but not so sure of the timing. So when I reach the OT, as fast as I could I went in straight 2 my OT 2 see how is the situation like. Of course its stated that 12 midnight will start the case & we will haf 2 prepare the recipient side. Anyway, the docs there I already can predict who will come over. But wat I cant predict is wat they will use during the operation. SOmemore this kindda case very long ago nv done liao.

From the start til the end I finish the whole operation, of course in btw got many stupid probs occured & I felt so damn irritated. Sigh...How I wish tat most OP can haf their standard sutures & usage, then wun haf any mistakes or misunderstanding. I dun understand y must docs always open their big fat mouth 2 shout @ ppl, while they dunno how 2 vent out their anxiety thro other ways. I rather get scolding from MR Agas then let those ppl bully me, from left right center. The harsh words tat was being said made me feel like saying them back, 'so & so is taking over me now, thank you 4 letting me haf 2 chance 2 TORTURE u guys. Come on la, its who torture who lst. Wat craps u can cooked up I dun care ah, cos after my bond I WILL LEAVE this irritating place. I simply hate cardio nowadays, cant control my feelings. It had been lasted 4 abt few wks. Hmm...guess I really nd 2 break & its a CLEAN break from work. I hate those stupid docs. If u guys knw wat u wan, Juz ask 4 tat thing la dun nd 2 shout 'purse string x n' so many times.

I really dunno wat u r going cos nv follow the sequence so how 2 predict u tell me?????If I can, means I can be NC lo. Dun always blame ppl 4 yr own mistakes! It only makes yrself sounds silly, I hate those sarcastic freaks. Wat the hell is this world coming 2 now? Anyway, I m so tired til I nd 2 go & bath then go 2 bed. Wish my last nite is GD GD GD....