一段美丽的邂逅

诚实的对待自己，是给自己一个极大的空间去想想，到底哪里做错了，必须更改进步。那也是一种奢侈的礼物，是一个很好的过程。这是对他人和自己的一种宽容，可以让自己进一步的了解，到底要求些什么？？？不是每一个人都有的机会啊，一定要抓紧。

可能我们都接受，一定是彼此不够成熟，在爱情里分不了轻重。诚实的过了头，不能退后也无法向前走。我们大家都明白，爱是一个自私的念头，也说不出谁错谁对。可能是我们的路程交叉了，停下了一会儿，让彼此之间有些回忆吧。回忆可能有好有坏，但至少我们曾经拥有过，那美丽的时刻。也应该感谢上天给的一个机会。。。

暧昧

暧昧就像是一种超越时空的感觉，让人看不到也动不着。它在你不知觉的时候，偷偷地走进你的心里。但又深深的刻了一个印，留下了它的脚步。那甜蜜的错觉感，会让人心动，但又害怕受到伤害。这种幻觉到底会逗留多久呢？？？

就是这种有的没的感觉，才让人更想要得到。可是也是同样的感觉，会让人受伤，难过，心痛。说它不好也说不通，就让这美丽的幻想在彼此的脑里打转吧。终究都会有醒来的一天。。。只希望它不要逗留太久，要不然就变成了习惯。

Shall I forgive someone who has hurt & betray my trust?

These days I have nv been really happy before, or I shld say since this yr 2006 I m trying my best 2 make myself happy. But at the end of the day, I still feel tat I m trying so hard to psycho myself in thinking tat I m really happy. Haf u tried before hanging out til quite late in search of relaxing yrself, in a way which u think tat u can be relieve of yr probs? For tat moment, it may seems tat those so called probs left me, but eventually it is juz being suppress by my mind.

Actually, I always tot tat being gd 2 ppl is a nice thing 2 so, but I m wrong. Totally wrong & the other party may even take u for granted, taking advantage of yr situation or even make use of yr little naive thinking. So end of the day, it seems tat I m a fool or sort of stupid 2 trust such a person. Being frens for more than 8yrs, I always tot tat we r gd frens & can trust u 2 be decent. Nv did I tot tat u betray tat trust & do something tat u shld nt haf done, but yet did it & pretend nothing haf happened before. So wat other feelings can I haf for someone whom I tot can be trusted, yet in the end hurt me so bad. U really make me feel tat I m juz a 'toy' or someone whom u can called upon when u r in troubles.

So far til 2day, I nv really fully trust u 100% but at least haf gave u tat benefit of doubt. Haa..I m really extremely disappointed at the things u did & still dare 2 ask me 2 pretend nothing haf happened, be gd frens as before. Hmmm...its a NO-NO to me. I believe tat somethings can be 4given but some issues cant & wat u did is cant be 4given, unless god can tell me y & how I can let it go. U shld be in a clear mind & knw wat u said & did, must anyone tell u wats wrong & wats right? I really dunno how 2 face u again when we met up next time round, must I treat u hostile or pretend nothing happened as u haf said>>>I really dunno & can I ever 4give u?

From tat day I received yr sms, I already predicted before tat wat is going 2 happen. In fact, I wanted very much 2 reply & tell u how I feel, but my heart stopped me. Really dun wish 2 drag this issue 2 my future advancement. No reply 2 u is the best response I can give it 2 u, if happen u haf some conscience u will knw wat 2 do next. But I doubt so...

A traumatic experience!!!!!!!!

On the 8th of April, I was supposed 2 be happily celebrating a peaceful early birthday party in chalet @ Downtown East. The first part of the celebration & gathering with my polymates & working colleagues was good. It turned out 2 be a joyful event & we chatted quite a bit. Lots of fun as most of us were busy with our work life, unable 2 meet up so my chalet was 2 gd chance 2 catch up with the old times we once had.

Hmm...Lots of things 2 talk abt but time is not enough. Some of my invited guests nv turned up due 2 some probs, so I'm a bit disappointed but nvm we can have another chance cos my real bd haven reached yet rite? The one I've been expecting nv turned up as promised, but this person has no responsibility & commitment 2 do wat was said. Anyway, wish tat this person can stay far away from my surroundings & leave me alone, stop making my life diff as I already started 2 stable down. I dun wish 2 further create another traumatic experience like tat day! Frankly speaking the way u treated me tat day is 2 far, its true tat I do not wanna even be friend with u if I have the choice. But since we knew each other 4 so long, I decided 2 forget abt tat day event & dun have any contact with u. As an adult, I think I knw wat I wan & since u cant do tat, may as well stay far away from me as possible. Even if happen we met again (sure 2 meet), I will try 2 pretend nothing had happened b4. Thanks 4 yr 'GOOD' birthday gift, which definately I'll remember but try 2 forget it.


Looking at these 2 pics, u may think tat I'm very happy. Indeed I'm but after a while more, u ppl will know wat is going 2 happen next. A tragedy occured & I cant even c clearly, my view is blocked with creams, cakes, beer & watever u can think of.


There u can c how bad the situation is now, u get wat I mean now. Haa... Imagine happily posing 2 take pics & suddenly my fren beside me, secretly took cake & smash 3x on my face. Worst of all, she still rubbed on like facial mask lo. Oh my god, can u think how I really feel tat moment???Maybe u ppl can get a taste of it 2 c if u feel GooD.... B4 tat after blowing my candles off, the same old trick of taking the candle stuck deep in with my mouth etc. Aiya,dun nd me 2 emhasize wat 2 expect u can jolly well guess wat happened la. My face was being dug into the cake 3x as if I was like a basketball. This is how I feel tat moment. Ya,it is fun 2 watch but if u r tat victim u will knw how la.

Oei,it is kidda hard 2 clean it off my face le. Then beside the cake smashing session, some beer fountain spraying on my whole body also. At the end of the day, my body was soaking wet. Totally wet & smells cos of the beer. Eekk..had 2 go & bath str away.

Lst birthday present....

A few days ago, when I came back home, I saw a nice box in front of my computer table. This is how it looks like, without opening it anyone could have guess what is in it....Wanna make a smart guess, hmmm....probably u r right!!!


A beautiful necklace with a star-shaped followed by 3 small diamond-like stones below. I bet u cant view it clearly but its ok, anyway there is another items in this red box, guess again...Hmmm....Earrings????No la, of course nt. Maybe I shld give u some hint, its something u can wear on yr wrist. Yes, its a bracelet.Shall let u c:


Daa..Dar...Isnt it nice sitting on my wrist?On my birthday I' m sure going 2 wear it. Its a present from .....Hee....I dun think wanna reveal who the sender but I really appreciate it. Although we dun usually c each other (only on some events/ festival), but I knw tat u really care for me. Thanks..Definately I will keep it safe in my hands, knwing tat u went thro the trouble to look for it.How I wish every of my frens & close ones can have the same tots as u. Wish tat yr arm can recover fast & get well soon.Lastly, I'll miss u.