Passport issue

2day on the 30th of Nov,I went 2 the ICA building 2 settle my passport issue. I m suppose 2 go work after tat,but the crowds r still coming in. Too many ppl going 2 make passport during this holiday season, esp 2day its monday. The application form I already handed up since last few wks & only received the letter of collection on the 3oth. Next wk I m going 2 malaysia 4 a short break wif my fren, Aida. So by hook or by crook, I nd 2 settle this prob asap as wed we r going down 2 bk our flight.

Upon arrival at the ICA building, its already kidda full hse as u can c in the above pic. So u can imagine how diff it is & how long I m queueing at there. Somemore the queue no. r not in order, anyhow jump queue so wat can I expect & do?Of course continue wait 4 my turn patiently but then haf 2 complaint a bit 2 my parents. Oh ya,my parents came wif me juz 2 c how the new biometric passport is done.sigh...

The submission of my form is done by my dad, tat time he spent quite some time waiting there. The main prob is holiday season!!!! Of course u may ask,y I choose 2 do at this timing??? Aiya, of course is bcos no time 2 do during the past few wks b4 tat, either I m on nite duty or v busy wif work. Also my fren & I planned 2 leave spore not long ago, she decided 2 visit our fren there so of course bit rushed la as my passport is not valid only 4 mths. The immigration ppl dun allow me 2 extend but ask me 2 do the biometric thumbprint passport.

Sigh...Since I cant make it on time back of course I call back 2 report & give my status as I m on pm shift. Anyway,I already v responsible liao, wk b4 I informed my NM & she noted but said if cant make it then call back inform. I called & informed then kena rubbish ah,ask me pester the counter ppl blah blah etc,juz like a typical irritating customer lo.Already I m granted e-leave liao then ask me do stupid thing.For the past yrs, I haf not been taking any e-leave at all can go check my records lo,then lst time take also get saying. 4get it la,ppl these days r like devils cant tolerate.CANT TOLERATE......

A busy & unforgettable nite!

Yesterday was my lst solo nite as a cardio staff, everything seems 2 be going fine & smooth til I went 4 my supper time. Upon receiving the call from EOT looking 4 me, 4 tat moment I knew things sure going nt well. So it is true tat I had a rush in case from A&E, who is the surgeon etc all the information was nt even given 2 me at all. I rushed up prepare & see 2 the items, asked the anaesthetist but she dun wanna say anything but very rudely commented, "Aiya, CABG juz prepared as per norm la, y bother 2 ask so much?" To me, do u think I really wanna bother so much & asked her if I dun haf 2 knw a single thing? Come on la, pls we worked as a team ok, u dun wanna give me information then how am I suppose 2 knw wat 2 prepare?

All cardio surgeons got their own preference & different sutures needed, then this on-call surgeon required the most things lo. I dun tried my best 2 prepare & finished all the setup but its 2 much sets. Somemore the patient is nt very gd, came in after set the lines his conditions went down hills. So the anaesthetist had 2 perform CPR on the operating table, b4 draping CPR again. Everything went so fast tat I haf no time 2 do my setup, but luckily only left 1 set haven ready so juz put the whole tray on table then go out lo.

This case from abt 1+am til 7+am, really tired me out. Nobody can help me cos they dunno the things I needed, so cant be helped.sigh....Wat I can do is 2 give instructions wat 2 open & put it where. I really appreciated the circulators, all those who are so helpful & give me help when I need the most. Thanks...The patient had 2 go on ECMO, 2 maintain his life 4 the moment. Its really v sad thing 2 knw. But anyway,I dared 2 say tat I had done my best despite not v smooth flow, bcos who can predict wat surgeon need & wanna do next? I can only anticipate wat my knowledge & wat I had learnt. Its a v v gd experience so call but traumatic 2 me.

Wat I m most angry abt is the surgeon, he dun appreciated wat I do. Ya, of course I admit tat I m nt v experienced but pls on nite shift, dun expect 2 much lo, how can u choose ppl????He asked 4 a senior staff 2 come help me, but can use his brains 2 think anot its nite emergency case not elective so smooth flow. DUn expect & requested 2 much, if u wan senior then better c when senior on duty then do yr case la. ( u can try if 'E" case can be predicted anot la). Dun be stupid minded lo, juz make do wif wat u haf as long as u haf no delay or problems going on, during the operation. Who wans 2 c u leh, I dun wan 2 as well pls lo....YA,I dun nd yr appreciation as well 2 confirm tat I haf done my best, my conscience is clear (as clear as water).

我累了

原本他因该回来了，但偏偏却要延迟。因为各种因素，工作永远都会是男人最重要的事。想想看如果没了工作，男人的自尊该往哪搁，如何顾家？我深深的明白，面子的问题有多大。就像爸爸一样，尽管现在无所事事，家里大小的事，他都想掌握大局。妈妈是个很柔弱的人，通常很迁就爸爸。身为家庭主妇的她，一直都任劳任怨的尽她的本分，好好的照顾我们。

家庭的重担如果没有了男人，是不是会有所改变？我记得好几年前家里出了一个大问题，到至今仍然还存在，不知道几时炸弹会引爆。。。只好期待它不会出现，要不然对我来说可是会造成很大的影响。周围的人或事，我一一都会选择放弃。为什么会这么说呢，那是因为我无法去管它们。要掌握这个家，可不是一件容易的事，需要牺牲的人和事物都数不清。为了此事，我想了很久，也有了个打算。

原本以为至少会有他陪我，但他比我想象中的更没用，离开了我。在我最需要他的时候，让我痛哭流涕，留下了一道不可抹去的伤痕。尽管如此每当我无意间想起，都会哭泣。他留给我的只有伤害，美丽的情景通通都被遮盖乐。爱一个人会这样对待她吗，浪费了我四年多的时间，来理解一个根本不爱我的人，简直就是愚蠢，笨，笨，非常的笨。不过，就因为他的事令我更了解到，男人是善变和经不起引诱。幸好我们没任何关系了，谢天谢地。很秦兴朋友们给我的支持和照顾，谢谢。。。

他的意外出现，使我又有了希望。虽然我们从没有真正的相处过，但彼此都很懂得他人的需要。他是一个富有责任感，明白事理的男人。跟他在一起的时间，时间好像过得很快，不知不觉就快要半年了。起初他叫我等他回来，我也就一口答应了，可能感觉到他的诚意吧。我的直觉告诉我，他值得我等待。他从来就没有信口开河，随便答应我什么，因为他知道期望越高，失望也就越高的道理。我喜欢他的稳重，对人与事的态度，最重要的是对我疼爱有佳。如果他是我所要寻找的人，能一辈子陪我到老，与我同甘共苦，那该有多好啊！！！我希望他是。。。你能不能告诉我你就是？？？？？